I am in a FOUL mood

I do not feel like myself today, I feel like a total and complete witch. I have no clue as to why I am feeling the way I do, maybe it has to do with the bullcrap earlier with Peggy, maybe not. I have not had as bad a day in a long time as I have been having today. I really don't think days off from work are for me, days I work I am fine, days I don't are poop, plain and simple. I have no one to talk to about anything, S kinda blows me off and trys to tell me what to do instead of listening to me and helping me with whatever it is I am having trouble with, my mom gets pissy if I say something wrong, and I wouldn't talk to my dad or brothers even if they were the last people on earth. I associate with all kinds of women in the cyber world but don't feel close enough to any of them to actually take the time to put it all out there like I really need to - Maybe I should look into talking to a therapist, who knows what I should do. I am definately going to look into that house, I really think walking on eggshells around here is half the problem with me, I don't feel comfortable here or like this is actually my house. I just hope that if I decide to move out that I can make it on my own, that I can actually afford to be in my own place and not have to worry about anyone else but me and Katie Bug, I already know Peggy isn't going with me so it will just be us. I don't ever want to have to come back here once I am out on my own again, it sucks here. I really think some of my problem today is that no matter how hard I try here I can never seem to make the food stretch and I am tired of my kids going without, not that they go hungry but I buy certain stuff for them and it's gone before they have a chance to get a bite of it. I am tired of everyone living here for free while I work a fulltime job and never have anything cause it all goes out to bills and such as soon as I get it. S wants me to move up to his area but I cannot responsibly leave my job, how would I take care of us? His area is a small small small town and job are few and far between, so until a miracle happens there we will be staying here in my town.